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This is a video, I have been very excited about posting… I’ve become a huge fan of this band/group since I first heard this song about a week ago. I love the artistry in this video and there have been a lot of different interpretations of this song, but it seems to me a story to two friends who took two very different paths. One became the leader of the people and he seemed to gain to much power to fast and the other became one of the people, he seemed happy and very “normal” but obviously wasn’t happy with the power of his childhood friend. Sometimes we forget how awesome childhood was and how the freedom of a responsibility free life could be… Growing up is never as good as we might of dreamt it being. So watch it and really enjoy the lyrics and the video on this wonderful piece of art…

[This was a song I wrote], a while back and have recently recorded, the reason I am posting it is I have recently spoken with my real father for the first time in 15 plus years. I’m at a point in my life where I have learned to forgive him for not being there, and for the mistakes he’s made. It an ironic thing, as I’ve become a father myself I have realized how much he’s been punished by life for not making the right decisions when it came to being there for his family. He never got to see me grow up; never got to see the athleticism he passed on to me, never saw his grand kids and he never got to walk my sister down the aisle. So as I move forward in life I feel like, he’s paid his debt to my heart and I honestly hope he’s happy. I am posting the lyrics to this song along with a rough recording of it because it was the process of venting that helped me get to the place I am at now. I would have a better recording but was recently robbed and they took my masters… so deal with the rough recording… I hope you can feel it.

Verse 1(5 year old)
Dear Daddy Guess what? I learned to read and write/
I sneak at night to write you letters you still receive them right/
Daddy I miss you/ and I don’t even care if you shout at me/
I don’t care about your issues/ I just want you to be proud of me/
But please don’t hit my mommy and why you so mean to us
It gotten scary when you were being ruff and screamed and cussed/
Daddy I just know mommy really loves you or at least tries to/
I know she so sad she lost you maybe one day we’ll find you/
Cause she said she’d permit it/ so daddy come down and visit/
I keep writing letters hoping you’d write, back but you didn’t/
And then you can come over and watch my little league games/
You can sit with the other daddy’s and you can scream my name/
Or you can bring all the presents you said you had gotten me/
I missed you after you left daddy/ and some how you forgotten me/
But I drawled you a picture of Mommy alone on a good night/
I couldn’t drawled you daddy I forgot what you looked like/(echo)
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I chose this video because of the message and the images.. that accompany it. It was made by a teenager who heard the song and was inspired into researching its message. The finish product was shocking to me… be aware of the language. The perspective is raw and straight forward but I am inspired by the process of being open minded to truth, and finding it for yourself not being spoon fed someone else’s ideals. Its not always a good thing to sit on the shoulders of giants when your vision is too blurry to understand what your seeing while your up there… please watch the whole thing… thanx
(4th Branch by Immortal Technique)

I’ve had a bad few weeks… really bad… and I was so frustrated I just had to vent here is me venting… Hopefully you will feel it. If not oh well.

Have you ever had that one-day/ where you feel like Job/

The clouds hide the sunrays/ and life steals your hope/

And what you find strength in/ seems to take notice/

But you feel forsaken/ cause you dreams lose focus/

And Lord I’ve done what you asked/ so I turn to you/

To the point I’m in sackcloth and ash/ like I learned to do/

And I pray hard/ and I plead/ hiding behind clenched eyelids/

And I have the same scars that bleed when I vent in silence/

Are there the same parts of me/ that wants to stand defiant/

But it’s the changed heart that needs/ this man to be righteous/

So I grip tight to your rob and I cry to wash your feet/

And I listen at night to the souls that always try to speak/

And for once I will be quiet/ and pray for my father’s voice/

I learned to foster his likeness from crumpled man to altar boy/

But you have NOT turned your back/ you never left me alone/

The covenant you made with me is forever… it’s never annulled/

So this is my first installment of scott-allens video of the month. What I want to do is find a video new or old that is just a wonderful piece of art and give it some sunshine and water in the minds of those who might not of seen it . The first one is “unforgiven” from Metallica’s black album.. From the lyrics to the music to the direction of the video its just an amazing story and unadulterated perspective of frustration… as a boy turns to a man and deals with his own obstacles. Just watch it.. its amazing.

Unforgiven